I Love You Jollibee, Goodbye

Sounds like the movie. But give me the freedom to say that, what I want to say.

Heavens know how I landed here years ago. I was in a building with worshipers and I whispered my prayers to the heavens and said, “God, bring me to a happy place.”

At that time then, this is where I chose to be and where I chose to stay. More than the lessons in life that I learned, it is the sincere friendship that lasts a lifetime that was built around this hive that matters most to me.

Wherever you are is the right place. And as I always tell, it is where you are destined to be. That is what I believe.

There are times when you feel that kick in your butt trying to oust you in your most comfortable seat. If you do not move at that right impulse, you burn. If you get stuck, it sucks. And it drives you crazy. To keep on swimming against the direction of the flow of your river. There will be boulders, eels, crablets, shrimps, small fishes (yes, am imagining that river right now..haha) and currents that will drown you to your own death down to the rock bottom, and be swallowed by the river forever. 

That.

Or you let yourself float to your flow to bring you above the waters so that you can see that clear sky and the sun brightly shining through you striking you with its rays as if the heavens are blessing you, injecting you with the natural energy of the universe, as you come alive.

So now you are breathing.  
Your eyes can see crystal clear what it is, beyond the promise. 
Your heart pumping for the right reasons to live…longer. 
Your lungs emptied all the toxicity of the air that polluted it.

And you smile, close your eyes, breathe and hum a tune of freedom. And as you awaken, your mind goes beyond what is significant.

It is when your heart is breaking painfully that you cannot stay longer.

Because you bravely choose life. Your own health, wellness, & wealth. 
Wealth of time for passion, for things that truly matter. 

And you know faithfully that everything will flow as you enjoy life and be happy as you gratefully say, I Love you, Life!

Let us flow. And let the flow begin.

Life, What Matters

You have been wondering.

I have been wandering in my world and beyond. Just like the old days. Still the same. I watch the rain.

Have you been scared? Bothered? After all of these stuck at home work from home or things worse than that? And what the future brings? I know you have been. I know you are.


Been putting back all the colors. And I have been telling my friends that am getting that right brain shift again so that I can spread the optimistic vibe in me to fight the toxicity of what this world has done with us.

It is only with the calmness of the bottom of the sea in your mind that your human spirit can function as a being. It is only that which will repair your human cells that was battered physiologically, emotionally, psychologically by those scheme of things.

You have to be reborn first. And give that time.

Because you are empowered. Believe in your cells that make up your human body physiologically. It will work wonders for you. Build it. You can do greater things. It will flow.

If you don't even have time to do that, then think again why. Why you are stripped of time for what matters.

As I always said before, know what you build, know who you serve. It is never too late.

JAPAN: The Beauty Within

When You pour all the gladness of eccentricity. 

You brought me where I have been wanting to live in a snap that my heart couldn’t resist.

You showed me the beauty again to calm the palpitations of my being.

You flattened the beat of my senses to show Your Faithfulness.

That fear in my chest for a long time, You appeased.

You showed Your vast wonders

To make me believe again that You can give more than the oceans and the hills.

You graced me with what makes my spirit jump for joy.

And You left me with a choice. And I wonder.

Mt Fuji Japan

Babuyan Islands: When Waves Form

Do you know how waves are formed?

I do not know too. But i just saw millions of waves forming...

Now I know why the expression "rough sea."

This morning, I saw those very big waves form in unison, and all i could do was pray. Also, that was supposed to be smooth as they looked like concaves. And it is liquid. It should look soft.

But lo and behold. The waves I saw are jagged like the edges of the chasms at Nagudungan hill in Calayan Island. From where I was to the end of the ocean. That when one falls on it, it seems like no one will survive its sharpness and be covered by blood. But that is water. But it looked like pointed. They looked like little mountain ranges. They looked like small volcanoes erupting out of the water. And you really do not know where to sail. This afternoon, the waves were coming from all directions and we seemed surfing the sea with a boat. And being in the ocean for a long time, I think I already was seeing bubbles in the water. I held my breathe with that push and splash all over me. And yes, not once but many. But those big ones that shook my senses, and jolted me, made me pray, sing, and pray over to calm the sea. There were times when it rocked me to sleep, but I had to open my eyes to witness not only the playfullness of the dolphins, but the harshness and hatred of the ocean. But whatever waves those were, Jay and Feric would be the best boat captains ever for now. And you may want to make an analogy out of this which will make it sensible to your life! This deep blue sea. Heyho, It is nice for me to be back. 😉

Calayan Island: Steps by the Hills

It was a very spontaneous trip. if i was not able to catch that bus, i would have been to another place. that trip, dependent on buses, boats and waves. i wish i had more time. & days. i wish i was not chasing the boats and the waves. and just stayed longer and remained, even for a few days. to watch the full moon. to sleep at Mabag house. unearth the burial jars and witness the stalactite formations by the hidden falls and the trees. and to beach all by myself, all i can. but you see, i was blessed with a golden sunset, these unlimited light that the moon gave at night, when there is no electricity, friends who own boats and big kind hearts who brought us to places unexpectedly, family in fuga who took care of our needs and found a way to have the boat fixed, boat captains who brought us alive out of the small but furious waves, neighbors who cooked meals for me, dolphins who surfed with us with those waves, and a lot of angels and fairies. <3 >D Thank you so much Ate Awit, Ate Nena, of Camiguin Norte, Lina who cooked food for us,Jay & Ferick, the boat captains; From Fuga, Aunty Minyang, Uncle Felix, Jong, Sheryl, Red Lee; From Claveria, Lola, Weng, Mariel; From Calayan, Irene Singun, Mommy Tess Samantha Singun; & Most of all Harry Asuncion Balais !!! Crazy friend! :) <3 Here is for all of yah! Hugs!

Camiguin Norte: Nothingness

All i did in the island was eat, sleep, stare at the beach. Ye, we live at the beachfront. Each day, the seabreeze blazed our skin, and senses.

lobsters, buko juice (coconut) at Camiguin Norte Babuyan Islands

Me and my good friend Harry who is already browned like me, was never bothered about it. We did not have a mirror to see how we look. In this island, i was free to be who i am, without worrying what to wear as long as it is clean and shows respect to your being; i was not worried what other people would say; If u know what i mean.

The sea stole all my sensibilities. Or was i more sensible that way? 😉 The days without internet signal really made me do nothing. Or was it better that way?

Wang od: Kalinga's Sunshine

He talked to her.
And pointed to me.
She saw me.
The world stopped.
She smiled at me, like sunshine.
She recognized me I think.
Or maybe some connection.
It was indescribable.
We looked at each other.
Like minutes.
We were both smiling.
She was doing her craft.
And i was shy to disturb the crowd around her.
There was silence.
She stared at me.
So i went to her.
Kissed my dear sister.
I am still speechless up to now.

If you were there at that moment,
You know what i mean by
"The world stopped".
Because i think it did.
That vibes in me for 6 years.
And that moment.
I just know in my heart.
😍❤